Was saying tonight - just been out for dinner - how angry I am that my arm is swollen. Am angry and upset, maybe the two emotions are the same. Was saying I could just take drugs and get "out of it"; have been so diligent and tried so hard to prevent lymphedema and now, although don't really know how bad it is, my arm is swollen and feels kinda uncomfortable.
The test will be - when I see The Lymph Lady tomorrow morning - if it is more swollen than it was on Monday. And if she thinks she can get it down, or whether this is it. This will impact on every second of my life, I said tonight.