Feeling much better and even tempted to delete my previous posting but hell, it is the way i was feeling.
Like this suggestion I found while googling "how to cope with the death of a parent":
"Perform random acts of kindness. This will help to remind one there is tenderness and thoughtfulness in the world. Pay the bridge toll for the person behind you. Smile at the store clerk. Some choose to perform random acts of kindness in memory of the person lost." - from /dying.about.com/od/copingresources/ht/morecoping.htm
And no longer feeling nauseaus. It is strange but eating does help nausea. Ok, add to that a nausea pill - you have to eat 30 minutes after this pill I took and rye bread with mustard and tomato sauce topped with soya sausage was great and no longer feel ill.
Now feel compassion re Jade Goody's death (watching her mom talk about it on sky news).