Went off this morning for what was to be my last radiation session. Had planned to buy cakes for the radiotherapists, had even discussed it all with my one sister and was feeling kinda bad that had not got it together. Had noticed that people give gifts when they finish their treatment but was too tired to make it to the shop in time (the exhaustion side-effects has finally kicked in).
Anyway, got there, minus the cakes which I decided could be bought another time, only to hear the machine had broken. Return at 4pm today but if not repaired, then tomorrow.
Felt like crying. And had to control myself as I drove off. Why was I so upset? Gosh, this was the last session, not the first. Am I such a control freak? No longer understand things.
But fine now. Have phoned, it's fixed and I am going this afternoon.
I live in Johannesburg, South Africa, where I was diagnosed with breast cancer on Thursday January 15 2009. This is my journey with cancer and other musings as surveyed - initially temporarily hairless - from under my hats.
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Showing posts with label radiation and exhaustion. Show all posts
Monday, June 22, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
had forgotten about it
Noticed something this morning I had not seen in months. In fact, it's not something which has ever played any significance in my life. But there I was, having a quick stare into the mirror wondering how long it would take before I could go hatless and just have a short cropped look, when I spotted it: light, blondish facial hair on the sides of my cheek. It must have gone away with the chemo, and has now returned. Welcome.
Later this morning, however, felt less cheerful when become suddenly, irrationally irritable. At nothing or no-one. There was nobody at work anyway as few work on Mondays. Just irritable. Felt like going home and sleeping. Later, much later, as in a few hours later at lunchtime, I started feeling better. Now could even go out for supper although am happily ensconced in front of the heater ..... with half pajamas on, so can always whizz back into proper clothes should the invite occur...
All this makes me pretty sure it was the radiation. Remember the doctor saying: "We usually advise our patients who work to come for the last appointment of the day so they can go home and sleep afterwards". I did (take the last appointment), for the first week or so but then leaving the office at 3.30pm to be there for their last daily appointment at 4pm became a bind and one, which then, was unneccessary. Now have four radiation sessions left..... and not sure can change it as tried to make Wednesday's one earlier and couldn't. Well, at least the irritability faded and maybe the nature of what I had to do to work had something to do with it.
Later this morning, however, felt less cheerful when become suddenly, irrationally irritable. At nothing or no-one. There was nobody at work anyway as few work on Mondays. Just irritable. Felt like going home and sleeping. Later, much later, as in a few hours later at lunchtime, I started feeling better. Now could even go out for supper although am happily ensconced in front of the heater ..... with half pajamas on, so can always whizz back into proper clothes should the invite occur...
All this makes me pretty sure it was the radiation. Remember the doctor saying: "We usually advise our patients who work to come for the last appointment of the day so they can go home and sleep afterwards". I did (take the last appointment), for the first week or so but then leaving the office at 3.30pm to be there for their last daily appointment at 4pm became a bind and one, which then, was unneccessary. Now have four radiation sessions left..... and not sure can change it as tried to make Wednesday's one earlier and couldn't. Well, at least the irritability faded and maybe the nature of what I had to do to work had something to do with it.
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