THE most traumatic day, well, half a day

Today was my six-monthly check-up with The Tango Man. To say I was anxious was an understatement. Already last night I became frantic, not even wanting to go out for dinner, which for me is most unusual as I love going out and am happy to do so all the time.
Then was fine when I woke up, and kept myself very busy (had the day off work as worked late shift of 6pm to midnight on Saturday). I did walk out the beautician but then I had booked for an express mani which takes 20 minutes, had allocated 30 minutes for it, and they kept me waiting for 15 minutes so I left. Reckon I might have done that anyway.
Then as the time got closer to 2pm and my appointment, I became beside myself. In retrospect I think it's double worse for me because I felt 100% when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, less than two months after having an "all-clear, come back in a year" mammogram. So feeling fine is no guarantee or indication of good health.
Anyway, am very happy to say, and very very grateful, that I am fine. Back again in six months and then of course there is a mammogram to have too. Don't think there is a scan. Must check. He gave me a series of papers but think it was just a Tamoxifen prescription and a list of the bloodtests I must have next time. Couldn't even make an appointment as they don't have the diary for next year yet.
Am over-the-moon. As I said to the doctor, I don't think this level of anxiety is very healthy! He said he often doesn't want to come to work because he doesn't know what he has to face, and likes all his patients. He said he knows it's not personal that I get so worked up about coming to see him. I adore him. Respect and admire him. He is a brilliant doctor. And very good-looking and sexy too, even though he is not young.
 PS: He mentioned it was two years since I finished Herceptin. I reckon no wonder I feel so good.

Having my yellow fever jab tomorrow

After much too-ing and fro-ing (how on earth does one spell that expression?), with the oncologist saying yes I can have a yellow fever vaccination, and the doctor at the travel clinic saying I couldn't, finally got the 2nd go-ahead from the oncologist and have booked it for tomorrow.
Tamoxifen might be a cancer med, but it doesn't lower your immune system and so the doctor was wrong. I am not immune-compromised and can go ahead and have the vaccinatio, even though it is a live vaccination. Got the message today that The Tango Man had said "this is his final word on the matter" and now The Yoga Man wants to know why I am so keen to have it, when the travel clinic had given me a letter of exemption.....

What a palaver!

I don't take any meds or do anything I think might compromise me without discussing it with my oncologist. So, now, since discovering I need to take malaria tabs and have a yellow fever vaccination to travel via Zambia to the Victoria Falls in Zimbabwe, I decided to ask The Tango Man if this was ok. Also did some googling but as I said to the oncology centre when I phoned, do you want me to rely on the internet for advice?
So I phoned. And then I phoned again cos they didn't come back to me. I did say it wasn't urgent but I did want to know. On Friday they phoned to say The Tango Man said the vaccination is fine. They had already told me on the phone that malaria tabs were fine (I am on the oestrogen-suppressant tablet tamoxifen).
My appointment at the travel clinic was at 11am today.
Arrived, filled in the form stating what I was on, waited and waited..... all doctors keep one waiting..... and then the doctor declined to give me the vaccination!
She seemed to think I was immune-compromised. I said I was not. I said I had asked the oncologist. She knew him and said: "But does he know it's a live vaccination?"
So we came to an agreement. She wrote me a form saying I was unable to have the vaccination because of an underlying medical condition, told me to tell the border control people I will only discuss it with a doctor, and then I am going to the oncology centre on Monday and gonna tell them what she said. Can always have the jab this week. Still time...