In between work, have to:
* collect medication at the chemist (would have done it on Saturday but was in bed with flu);
* drop off three skirts at tailor for alterations (another missed Saturday task);
* go to listeners' library to get new book on CD to listen to in car (another missed Saturday task) - have Bishop Tutu's CD but finding it too Christian for me but might give it another try in the morning and decide;
* make it to beautician at 4pm for manicure and pedicure.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
learning to accept
I have just been chastised for not accepting that I am on chemo and therefore immune compromised. And it's true. I am sicker than I want to accept or, rather, I should not be so upset when something goes wrong physically. I should just accept it. And just deal with it.
So when I felt an ulcer inside my mouth just now, I should not get hysterical envisaging the throat thrush that made me unable to eat solids, but merely think: Ok, I have an ulcer; where is my yellow emulsion to treat it? Cos let's face it, it's not throat thrush yet and there is no need for it to deteriorate and become that. And it's not surprising that my immune is compromised and therefore I am getting an ulcer. That is what happens when one is on chemo.
Sjoe! Gonna have to learn a whole new way of thinking.
So when I felt an ulcer inside my mouth just now, I should not get hysterical envisaging the throat thrush that made me unable to eat solids, but merely think: Ok, I have an ulcer; where is my yellow emulsion to treat it? Cos let's face it, it's not throat thrush yet and there is no need for it to deteriorate and become that. And it's not surprising that my immune is compromised and therefore I am getting an ulcer. That is what happens when one is on chemo.
Sjoe! Gonna have to learn a whole new way of thinking.
much chirpier today!
Am really not a homebody and find staying at home a strain and a drain especially when want to go out, like yesterday. Now on my way out to Sandia, a friend, for lunch. Yippee!!
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