I had the hysterectomy on Monday morning. Have not had the written report yet but my gynae had had a conversation with the pathologist who told him there was no malignancy; just a fibroid.
I feel a bit shellshocked. I was so sure I was doing the right thing. My gynae had told me: "You are playing with fire". He really thought I how cancer or pre-cancerous cells. My history of breast cancer and being on tamoxifen had pointed him and everyone else in that direction. Now he has told me: "The fibroid was causing negative cells".
On Thursday the gynae told me: "Five doctors approved of this procedure".
I exploded.
"Five doctors? Who?"
I then pointed out that the GP had agreed with him but that I would never speak to him again cos he told he I had endometrial cancer and got it all wrong. And that was approving of the op; that was agreed with the gynae when he informed him.
My oncologist spoke to me before I saw the initial pathologist report. Once I found out the report suggested a D & C only, not a hysterectomy, the oncologist did not return any of the three messages I had left him. I think he felt he had spoken to me. And I didn't have cancer; why did he need to speak to me?
The pathologist who did the initial report had told me it was drastic, he just needed more tissue but recommended I do it.
He too suspected cancer.
I believe the gynae thought he was doing the best thing.
Oh and the 2nd opinion doctor, the head of what-what at Wits University, just threw the textbook at me, suggesting two things (all indicating cancer) that had they been an issue when I was diagnosed four years ago, the oncologist would have dealt with them.
So really it was the gynae.
Now I have had it. And I wonder why.
The Yoga Man, my dear friend, says "six weeks isn't so long, you'll be fine" but I feel like someone who had a vague threat of breast cancer in the family and had a double masectomy (I know many in America do that; I don't).
I feel the drastic surgery I had was unnecessary. The night before the procedure, on Sunday night, at 10pm, I had second thoughts. Let me change it to a D &C , I thought. Let them tell me it is cancerous or pre-cancerous.... and then.
This is radical.
Anyway. I tried to post my blog from my phone but need to check that facility; it didn't work from hospital.
Will be home for about a month. Lots of time to write, I guess.
I feel a bit shellshocked. I was so sure I was doing the right thing. My gynae had told me: "You are playing with fire". He really thought I how cancer or pre-cancerous cells. My history of breast cancer and being on tamoxifen had pointed him and everyone else in that direction. Now he has told me: "The fibroid was causing negative cells".
On Thursday the gynae told me: "Five doctors approved of this procedure".
I exploded.
"Five doctors? Who?"
I then pointed out that the GP had agreed with him but that I would never speak to him again cos he told he I had endometrial cancer and got it all wrong. And that was approving of the op; that was agreed with the gynae when he informed him.
My oncologist spoke to me before I saw the initial pathologist report. Once I found out the report suggested a D & C only, not a hysterectomy, the oncologist did not return any of the three messages I had left him. I think he felt he had spoken to me. And I didn't have cancer; why did he need to speak to me?
The pathologist who did the initial report had told me it was drastic, he just needed more tissue but recommended I do it.
He too suspected cancer.
I believe the gynae thought he was doing the best thing.
Oh and the 2nd opinion doctor, the head of what-what at Wits University, just threw the textbook at me, suggesting two things (all indicating cancer) that had they been an issue when I was diagnosed four years ago, the oncologist would have dealt with them.
So really it was the gynae.
Now I have had it. And I wonder why.
The Yoga Man, my dear friend, says "six weeks isn't so long, you'll be fine" but I feel like someone who had a vague threat of breast cancer in the family and had a double masectomy (I know many in America do that; I don't).
I feel the drastic surgery I had was unnecessary. The night before the procedure, on Sunday night, at 10pm, I had second thoughts. Let me change it to a D &C , I thought. Let them tell me it is cancerous or pre-cancerous.... and then.
This is radical.
Anyway. I tried to post my blog from my phone but need to check that facility; it didn't work from hospital.
Will be home for about a month. Lots of time to write, I guess.
